I had this idea about missions that has been totally crushed!! I thought that since i obeyed God and since I feel His favor on the decision about going to Africa, that it should be all "up hill" but i have quickly found out that alot of times God's favor comes with pain and inconvenience. I have been reading about Mary and about how she was favored by God, but as I studied more I realized, at such a young age she went through so much. She becam pregnant out of marriage, She was not only pregnant, but pregnant with God! WOW!!!  I cant imagine the treatment that her town gave her for being so unfaithful to Joseph, for getting pregnant before they got married with someone elses child. Then she almost lost the man she loved, but through this she was obedient and prayed to God for His strength and He was faithful in giving her what she needed. From reading that i realize that being favored by God doesnt always mean favors from God.  He will give me exactly what i need when i need it. I need to remain obedient through the struggles that i go through and continue prasing Him.

So with Africa coming, and with all the things we need to do to get ready, remember that Our GOD is faithful and will be with us through it all. He is a God that is all about intamacy with us. I have been reading these lyrics to a song that a friend from high school wrote and it has been my prayer for the past week, i thought someone else might like to read it. 

Ride the wave, wave goodbye, by the way did I mention today

That I don't know the way home

So could you take me by the hand and lead me to the dryer land

So I can finally breathe again instead of sinking like a stone

And now I will diligently and not religiously but affectionately come

Before the throne of your grace in this place and seek your face

For all eternity and then some

I'm going Your way

Even though I cannot see in front of me

I'm going Your way

Even
  though I feel lost at sea

   
Jimmy Needham, Lost at Sea